Wide eyed

I came here tonight simply because I have too many pesky words floating around in my head tonight, making it impossible to get some sleep. So I guess things tend to drop in your life pretty unexpectedly sometimes. And when I say things, I'm referring to things/events/people ect. And sometimes these "things" can change your life. Good or bad. Wanted or not. There's just no stopping it or forcing it. So it's easiest, I've learned to accept it for what it is. And eventually that thing, liked or not could leave, unexpectedly, with no note or goodbye. But you know why. You understand fully why it must go and move on, possibly to drop in on the next person. You don't know why it came in the fist place, yet you accepted it right away as if it were a gift meant just for you. But when it's time for it to go, and you do understand and know exactly why, it's a little bit tougher to accept its disappearance. Now you're stuck here feeling selfish and ungrateful that this beautiful thing came and touched your life, and all you can do is dwell on what it "could have been", rather than being thankful for what it was. Truth is, sometimes the only way to fully care about something or someone is to let them go. To just put the last bit of icing on the cake, before cutting it open and chomping it to bits. And doing this is the first bit of accepting the absence. The rest is on your own.