5 minutes

Five minutes is enough time to run around the track three times. Its enough to count 30 lighthouse rotations... to walk from one end of great valley high school to the other. And lately five precious minutes every saturday night has been enough to slowly tare me up inside. You see, these five tiny minutes are ones that this time last year we would have NEVER wasted, and that this time next year we will rarely have. Its these five minutes that absolutely terrify me.. that push me away.. that make it okay for me to publish this post. Because I know he doesn't take five minutes to read my blog anymore. Then I started thinking.. and calculating.. and adding up all the five less minutes in his life that don't involve me in any way, directly or indirectly. And now I'm beginning to think he's smart. I feel as though I'm losing him, and it's the worst feeling in the world. But soon he will be out of my life almost completely.. so I guess I too should be cutting out five minutes here and there. 10:55 "I'm home."