I once had a person in my life who was different from everyone else. We were a lot alike and got along pretty well but the thing that was really special about this one particular person was that he was never trying to change me or judge me, I never had to worry about living up to his expectations. I was always just me, nothing more or less.

Now don't get me wrong I am happy for this person. He's finally truly happy and I would never want to stand in the way of that. I know things will never be like they used to be and i've accepted that, it's just at times like these i could really use my bestfriend back.

The Change

I went in the same tiny room and sat in the same chair as I always had. As I thought back to the beginning, it seemed completely different compared to now. Though, barring a few added pictures to the wall, the room had barely changed at all since the first time I walked in. I was the one that changed.
She talked about this year probably being the most pivotal year of my life. I never really thought about it until I starting remembering the first time I had stepped into her office. The day my world had completely fallen apart.
I remember the exact feeling.
As I sat there for the last time, I thought about all that has changed since then. I realized my life had to completely fall apart in order for everything to come together.
I'm sitting here now smiling. Because this pivotal year, the ups and mostly, the downs have permanently shaped my life. Because not only do I know who I am right now, I know who I want to be, I know who I will be. And I know exactly what I want.
After my junior year of high school, I can say, with confidence for the rest of my life

I want to change people.