Priorities

"Do what makes you happy". The simplest answer to some of life's most difficult questions. This entire week I've been pondering the question: What DOES make me happy? I know this is something I should probably just know. My friends make me happy and my family and the thought of my future and my means of getting there. I'm beginning to think the better question is: What in my life doesn't make me happy? What's the unnecessary components? And are they worth eliminating? It's funny because a while ago I started running because it relieved my stress and kept me from doing destructive things to myself. It's five years later and I cannot pinpoint one thing more frustrating, time consuming, or stressful in my life than running. How did this happen? I realized the key to relieving to my overworked, caffeine driven lifestyle. Prioritize. When I think about this hard enough, I realize some pretty scary facts about myself. Even though it's only two or so hours a day, I put running before all things. If I have a huge test the next day and need to study, I go to track anyway. If I find a really great internship that runs until 5 o'clock everyday, I choose track. If my friend really needs someone to talk to, and 4:15 rolls around, I choose track. And you know what, while I'm running I'm thinking about that test I could be studying for or the great experience that internship could have been or worst of all, how shitty of a friend I've been lately. And during this time in just two years from now, it's not going to even matter if I got those six miles in today, or that I hit my workout times. What's going to matter is the final GPA I put on top of my resume, the job I (hopefully) am granted, and the people standing right beside me. Needless to say, on a list of what makes me happy, my priorities are way way out of whack.