honesty

i guess i should tell him. i think i owe him just that. its just, i dont even know where to begin, or where we'll end up when im done. we're trying this whole new honesty/dr phil thing, but i beleive it should go both ways. he trusted me with everything... so why am i not ready to trust him yet?

<3 toung-tied

making the best of it

i have no words to say. well i have many words i want to say, but none i could share with the world, and i think thats becoming part of the problem. why are we forced to live through things we dont understand? why must secrets and lies have to camoflaug life's hardest parts? i feel like im just sitting on the sidelines watching all this shit explode, yet its like im right in the middle of it all too. everything is just going off around me, and im just sitting here, watching. i know i shouldnt be internalizing (*good word*) all this, but the secrets and missing peices just keep on unraveling, and the one person i go to for everything is holding the biggest secrets of all. its not that i dont feel comfortable going to this person, its just that on this particular matter, it's hard. meanwhile, im trying hard to ignore the little annoyances that set me back, and living life to the abosolute fullest, words from my best friend. so, i guess we were given this life for a reason, might as well make the best of it...

<3 confused

split

just went for a run. its getting harder to do that now cause my knee is getting worse. yesterday was fun, me and some ppl from my softball team volenteered at the minor/major drafting. we had fun. lol. but afterwards mr perkins gathered us and told us that we might have to split our team this year. i cant believe they would do that to us. we all couldnt beleive it. he told us they were trying their hardest to keep us together we acted like it was ok, but we knew what one another was thinking. after we went to friendlys. then we took another road trip to the girls bball game, then the guys. it was a pretty fun day!

<3 worried

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wow. sry. jimmy really loves the letter i. he needs help.

remembering

5 months...

snow

snow day today!! yay! heres some pictures from the last time it snowed! because im bored. yeah we had some pretty fun times. lol volenteering at the old person center! hahah

I love my friends!

EXCITEDDD

well. just another day of dealing with crap thats way past my maturity level. things need to slow down, im beginning to drowned (spelling) here. but im always a cup-half-full kinda girl so...im excited for the weekend!!! woot woot! we're suppose to get snow tomorrow!! yessss. softball starts in TWO WEEKSSS. and jamaica in less then a month. iv got a lot to look forward too! well. thats all for now. i was bored so i came here. lol.

mid night texting sessions

not that i dont love helping people with their problems or our problems, it just sometimes becomes alittle overwhelming. i was completely jet-lagged all day today. i couldn't focas on any one thing at a time. my thoughts kept on jumbling up inside my head. it was becoming so distracting. and even though it was extremely akward today, i just want this person to know that they can continue coming to me with anyyything no matter what. im sry, i think i was coming off a bit stand-offish today. its just so new. im so glad u came and talked to me... :)

<3 overwhelmed

no end

i just got back from the mall with the most amazing people in the world. we had a pretty fun time! its the last day of break. sadly. i have to go back to school tomorrow about 100 times more confused then when we got out last thursday. idk. somehow it all just became one big mess. but its just one of those things we have to live through. right? it just seems like with our group, we're forced to live through a lot of things. it feels like there's no end.

<3 confused

first entry

ok. ive never done this before but it looked fun so i started one. well i dont really know what to say, so i guess thats all...lol. what now?