Thriving

I heard something recently that has really stuck with me- anyone who has believed in you, you owe that person a lot. Last week I had a conversation that I undoubtedly needed to have. I realized there's a certain amount of empowerment in being able to talk about your past without it burning up your insides- in looking at it from the perspective of "the past" rather than the present and future. I think that's what I've been working toward for the past three years. That feeling of reminiscing on these events, it's pretty incredible. That's not to say it doesn't effect me anymore, because what happened- it matters in a profoundly deep and life changing way, and I will never forget that or take it for granted. "You are thriving despite it." That is the line that has stuck with me. I realized these terrible battle scars I carry around with me are my biggest motivation- that I, myself am my biggest motivator. I realized that the blog post I wrote five years ago holds true today. I realized that I'm almost there, that my huge, unfathomable plans don't seem so unattainable all of a sudden. And that I'm here, not just surviving, but thriving. And that's incredible.