Spitting Words

It can be incredibly hard putting words to emotions. Not written words necessarily, but verbal ones. Have you ever felt something so deeply that when you try to bring it to the surface, it's already been through so much getting to that point that it comes out all shaky and unfamiliar? Like you don't recognize your own voice maybe because you've never heard that emotion spoken before. Or maybe because your scared because speaking that emotion makes it so much more real and alive. Or it could be because your afraid of what the other person might think. It's so easy to say "I'm fine" or "I don't want to talk about it". It's true strength and courage letting someone on the inside. It's our brains natural fight or flight. We live behind this mask of "I'm fine" because its easier than letting someone in to see our "I'm fabulous" or our "I'm sad", our true raw emotions. So as a result our first time "I love you"s, our first time "I have a problem"s, our "I'm scared"s or "I'm sorry"s are often put off, being it much easier to flight than fight. The thing is, sometimes you have to fight. You have to be your own thinking feeling self. When it's worth it, you'll know. Sometimes you just have to pick up your shovel, dig all the way down deep, grasp those feelings and allow yourself to feel them. Accept them before you spit them out, and I promise, others will too.