Reasons

"Everything happens for a reason." Something I've been thinking about a lot lately. I was never exactly a fate person, but I do believe God has a set plan for each and every one of us.
Right around the start of eleventh grade, things in my life began falling to pieces. Everyday I wore a big smile on my face hiding the evidence under my shirt. The scratches turned to cuts. And eventually, the cuts turned to gashes. There was one person in the world that knew. The one only person I wanted to know. Every cut tore him up as well; on the inside. The day I was called to the office to "talk" was the day my entire world fell to the ground. He had spilled the beans. That day my mouth was too dry to speak. So I sat in her office and listened, her words tearing at my brain like rusty nails. I just remember thinking "how on earth could this be happening to me?" ME? The one who seems to have it all figured out. But it was happening. Reality sunk in deeper and deeper as I sat in that room for the very first time. Little did I know, the first time of many.
The following months I was living out my nightmare. But you see, it was that very day that I look back on so often. It was that very day that I started to change. It's because of that day, that office, that very first meeting, that I am where I am right now. Typing this post right now, there's no doubt in my mind I want to do exactly what she did for me. I want to help people. I want to change people. The faculty and students in that office became my support network. They were there for me always no matter what day or time for the rest of my high school career. Unlike the other aspects of my life, it wasn't about my grade point average was or how fast I ran the 400. None of that mattered. And in 4 or 5 or 6 years from now when I start my future job, none of that stuff will matter then either. What will matter is what I created, the relationships I built, the things I learned that cannot be learned from a text book in that very room, that's what will matter.
So they say "everything happens for a reason." And yes, I believe that statement. Because if it weren't for that one day, and the several more that followed, I would never be the strong confident person I am today. And for that one day, I will always be thankful.

(And for the one that spilled the beans, I will always be thankful for him as well) thanks again :)