gripping tight

i feel myself gripping so tight. i know that once this is all over, i'm going to be willing to do anything to get it back. i know that in two weeks, this will all just be a memory, and we will all be forced to face reality again. i'm just afraid that when it is all over, that i'll have way too much time to think about things. i'll have to deal with the stuff i've been putting off, without a team to back me up. i'm scared that i've grown to attatched. i'm mad that i've worked so hard, just to have everything ripped away. and then i come to the realization that i'm gripping too tight.