The thing about caring about people is once you start, it's really hard to stop. For as long as I can remember, caring about people too much has been the one thing I just can't stand about myself. It's always all or nothing. There's never a middle ground. When I'm in, I'm all in. Don't get me wrong, it isn't all bad. I've become an expert around people who need caring for. And it's awesome because it just comes natural. But in all other cases, caring too much is just a big giant mouse trap for having your feelings crushed. For once in my life I want to just not give a fuck. I want to be able to live without heavy burdens and sensitivity weighing down on my shoulders. I want to not care about what other people think or feel for just one day. I would say that I'm going to take strides toward lessening my load of caring which seems like the most proactive thing to do, but I've tried to do this more times than I could count. Once it's there, it's there for good.