Hidden Thoughts

Do you ever feel like you're missing what's right in front of you? Like if you were to just stop for a second and view your life from the outside in, you would realize there are huge things that you fail to notice everyday. Before I left for school I found something I had been looking for for a while. At first, I was so happy that I found it. Right after I realized it was right where I left it. I could remember the moment I had put it there perfectly. Somewhere in my brain I had known where it was the whole time. It wasn't a matter of finding the object, but finding the thought in my mind that led to the object. I would just love to unravel all those thoughts. Rediscover all those lost objects my mind has purposely for one reason or another concealed. I have to stop and wonder sometimes what I'm missing. Maybe there's a reason he's always been there, that he's the one I turn to when I'm happy or sad. Why for whatever reason it's never worked with anyone else. Don't get me wrong here, there are very few times I find myself thinking I wish I had a boyfriend. There's no doubt in my mind that I'm perfectly content with my life right now. But I also can't lie to you and say it hasn't crossed my mind. What if someday I finally unravel that tiny bit of information hiding in the far depths of my brain, and everything just falls into place? What if that tiny bit of information isn't so distant after all, just waiting on the tip of my tongue where it has been for a while? What if someday it just gets so impatient and jumps out on me and all of a sudden I just realize that hidden object has been here all along, I just had to remember where I left it. But that in turn leads to the question, why was it hiding in the first place?