This too, shall pass. The quote I've been thinking about a lot lately. These past four months I've gotten to experience what it's like not having student services in my life. While yes, I do indeed missing having someone to talk to at any point in the day, I've also come to realize how strong I've become as a person.
Knowing you weren't quite good enough, and someone else was is quite possibly the absolute worst feeling in the world. Especially when the other person meant everything to you. Looking back I understand why it stung so badly. It seems like in some way, shape, or form I've been "not quite good enough" for every guy I've cared about. I'm tired of feeling that I need to change to please others. Lately, I've been good enough for myself, and that's all that has mattered. I like that feeling a lot. I've learned to be extremely selective, because you see, I have this problem where I care about others A LOT. And once I start caring about them it's very hard to stop. And well, the more selective you are the less memories you have to force yourself to forget, and the less feelings you have to ignore if it doesn't end happily ever after.
I get by with my best friends, some laughter, and a little bit of chocolate. And for now I'm perfectly content ;)