Finding Yourself

A lot of times I find myself wishing things were different. Simpler. Less confusing or painful or difficult. Sometimes, I just wish things were like they used to be. Everything in my life had a place. Including me. Every person, every activity, everything, just seemed to fit together around me so seamlessly. I always knew where I belonged and where I was going. I knew exactly who I was. I knew exactly where I wanted to be. Between then and now, I've come to realize the certain things in my life that have clouded my certainty with indecisiveness (word?). The hurtles, the boundaries, the "would be"s "could be"s "should be"s that have changed me and morphed me into someone I would have never known. Maybe you have to pick yourself back up time and time again to learn how strong you are. Fight for what you want to discover your willingness. And allow yourself to change and progress to realize how far you've come. They say high school is all about finding yourself. But maybe the truth is, you have to get lost a couple times along the way to really discover who you are in the end.