she asked about her at the dinner table again today. we all stared down at our food as mom answered in that same familiar way- we lost her number. i didnt lift my eyes off my food for a while in hopes to avoid the sad looks painted on my family members faces. everyday i watch her get a little bit more confused. we took her to the funeral, she remembers seeing the faces, but she doesnt remember the death, or the horrible way that the death occured, like we do. does mom mom really deserve this? we didnt know her nearly as well as she did, yet we remember the phone call, the funeral, the sadness, while she sits there, not even knowing the loss, not even recognizing the sorrow.
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